Everything happens for a reason.

 

Today was a day when I felt a bit insecure. 

The pain that I thought it's gone started again and new pain added up even. 
That happened when the previous condition was hard enough to put me in a situation where I doubt my recovery.

I know there should always be ups and downs throughout the healing process.

But, today was just a day when I couldn't keep myself together. 

Coming back to this blog and going through my rehab journals, I was able to regain my composure. 
Initially, I knew that I would have fluctuations in my healing process. But, facing the reality of the fluctuations is somewhat different from expecting them to take place. 

However, what I have written actually helps me a lot when I'm in need. 
I can analyze my symptoms and conditions objectively when I feel some negative emotions. 
Those posts cleared my mind today. 

Actually, my condition is not as bad as I thought this afternoon. 
I tried a new routine and it's just beyond my current capacity. 
But, I got better at performing the previous routine that I was unable to do 2 weeks ago.

It's a learning process. 
We learn from mistakes.
And, it was not a terrible mistake which I can't recover from. 

Tomorrow, the sun comes up again.
I will have another chance to make up. 
I will make the most of each day.
Even though this rehabilitation routine is not as easy as I expected it to be at the beginning, I'm actually feeling the taste of life to the fullest throughout this challenging journey. 

I will overcome this challenge and say, my Lord is alive. 
If I can get the right lessons, I'll be able to help others. 
Everything happens for a reason.
I will eventually realize what I should learn from this process. 

My God got my back as always.
I am not alone. I GOT THIS!